Thursday, January 5, 2012

post Christmas

I wanted to post on the night of Christmas while all my thoughts still held the spirit and beauty of Christmas. But I chose to live those moments instead of blog them. So here I am five days into the New Year thinking about my Christmas season that seems to have blasted by. It was a mix of hurrying to get things done, searches for last minute DIY gifts, ice skating, games, a quick run on Christmas Eve to ward off the stress that was seeping in, excitement over what Santa would bring (of course), way too much yummy food, and then it was also quiet and very real moments, and finding fresh faith once again.
Two days before Christmas I went to refill B's inhaler prescription only to find out I couldn't get more medicine unless he saw the doctor. He wasn't really that sick but as an asthma patient he needs to have his medicine on hand and he needed a boost as he was wheezing, and sometimes things can spiral downhill fast.  We had enough meds to get us to the appt., but as I watched B with the mask on his little face puffing the medicinal air in and out I had a bit of little heart ache thinking that without this medicine we may very well have lost him at some point in his life. During these moments I'm filled with such enormous thankfulness for everything we are blessed with, and for every moment I have with my children.
This thankfulness combined with this book I read over the past few weeks (God Came Near by Max Lucado) really brought the love of my Savior (our Savior) into the light over Christmas. I've never realized so much the love he had for us to literally come into our world and be every bit human and experience everything we experience. So there are about a hundred quotes from the book I love that have inspired my thoughts and hopes for the next year. I have so many normal New Years resolutions (like getting in shape and finding my own painting style instead of copying ones that I like) that I am putting into gear but most of all I want to hope BIGGER, pray BIGGER, love BIGGER! I want to SEE everything through amazed eyes....."Our problem is not so much that God doesn't give us what we hope for as it is that we don't know the right thing in which to hope...It is zany, unpredictable dependence on God who loves to surprise us out of our socks and be there in the flesh to see our reaction." "How have we grown so deaf? How have we grown so immune to awesomeness? Why are we so reluctant to be staggered or thunderstruck?"- Max Lucado
So here's to be staggered and thunderstruck this year!! Cheers- I'm pretty excited!!