Saturday, January 29, 2011

capture every thought

This was the entry today for Jesus Calling for kids. I love this book for Natalie's age. The devotions are short and to the point. I would say this is great for a kids short attention span but to be honest its perfect for my current attention span also. Annnd the cover has a super cute little vintage looking fun bird on the cover. I do, BTW, literally judge a book by its cover. Anyway, I highly recommend.
So on to today "We capture every thought and make it give up and obey Christ." 2 Cor. 10:5
Okay so I have previously not liked this verse so much b/c I found it always making me feel guilty that all my thoughts weren't....holy. Okay that's not the right word of course I don't expect all my thoughts to be holy and neither does God. I guess this verse I felt put pressure on me to always be thinking the right thing and that time I spent letting my mind wander was wasteful, unfruitful, basically not okay. However, this says... Today, let your goal be to capture every thought and bring it to Me. Wherever your mind wanders, lasso those thoughts and show them to Me. Having anxious thoughts? They shrivel up and disappear when My Light shines on them. Having confused thoughts? My Peace will untangle them. Starting to think you're better than someone else? My unconditional Love will help you see that I love all MY children, and so should you. Keep your thoughts focused on Me so that you can enjoy My Peace.
Ahh so that for me is beautiful. And why I love that I have a personal relationship with God- the God. It's so true. When I'm having my doubting moments, like in my previous blog, I give my thoughts to Him (along with my burdens and everything else) and He gives me what I need....every time. I have tears in my eyes thinking about it now. It's amazing.
Okay now to clean all the baby spit up off me and make M's b-day cake.
And just this time I'm going to end like my favorite blogger....
Grace and Peace

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

searching for grace

My day often consists of chore after chore. I seem to always be thinking about the next thing that needs to be done, so there isn't a lot of time to let my mind wander. When it gets to wander I have the most beautiful thoughts and memories and ideas. I think the most profound things, but then before I get a chance to write them down or think them fully through they are gone- vanished into thin air. I think how blessed I am to be living my dream. But then in the midst of that thought I either fall asleep or have to attend to a crying baby or address an argument about something like the ownership of a Webkinz. I just don't have a lot of time to wander. Even now as I have a few mins. to essentially waste time b/c M's mom is picking up Ben from school I am thinking of all the things I should be doing with this time.
I guess what I'm afraid of is that I'm missing something. Raising children is a big deal. I see and hear all the time how a person has either succeeded or failed in life b/c of something their parents did or didn't do. There are so many things to be thinking about- loving my children (this comes easily most of the time) and when something isn't pressing I do love to take them to the park, the library, read a book, dance with them...for me this is the part of parenting that is right up my alley. Then there is teaching them to be how to be healthy, feeding them the right things, making sure they brush their teeth, helping with homework (and this is hard for me b/c there are sooo many subjects), nourishing their walk with God and teaching them right/wrong...I could go on and on. So with so many things to teach and so many opportunities to fail....... how do I know I'm not coming up short? I know what I would tell other moms asking me this question. I would say to ask God for the strength and knowledge to know how to parent and He will lead you in the right direction and ask Him if there are places that you need to work on. I guess what I'm saying is I feel like I'm doing my best and hoping that God takes over for me in the places I'm the weakest in. Some days I feel super confident but then days like today not so much. Love the words from this worship song...
Lord I'm tired, yes I'm weak
I need your power to work in me
But I can't let go, I keep hanging on
There must be more
On a lighter note Sunday is M's 30th birthday!!! And these are some pics I took of him and the kids to help celebrate.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


I think one of the very best feelings is when you wake up and there is snow covering everything and NO SCHOOL! We had so much fun yesterday- sledding, baking, just staying toasty indoors and watching movies. M even got to stay home b/c Athens got 8 inches!